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Tuesday, August 16, 2005

To The Grave
Mood:  blue
Topic: Will
To The Grave
Written 8/16/05
Entangled in webs of my sorrow,
Suppressed I try,
To fight away the tears,
As I sit where you slept for the night,
My couch,
I wouldve stayed up later with you,
Had my dad not been in a bad mood,
Trickle of tears becomes a near steady stream,
Everything reminds me of you,
As my eyes did,
Threatened to,
When all I could do,
Was stand and watch you in line to board the plane,
Deep in my heart I wish you could move back,
You and I would be together everyday,
Everything would be right again,
To run back to me,
As you did when your flight was cancelled,
A happy moment,
Seemed to good to be true,
It gave me another night,
To spend with you,
Happiness,
Ill be thinking of you a lot,
You said,
As we hugged before you left for the airport,
For real this time,
Spared of the airport,
A slow agony of losing someone close to you,
For who knows how long,
Yet stuck with a horrid misery,
Losing someone equivelant to your best friend,
But a million times worse,
The fear of never seeing them again,
5 yrs it had been,
It's a wonder I ever lived,
Cause over this vacation,
I’ve realized how alike we are,
How happy I am when I am by your side,
In your arms,
No onthers hhuggs are the same,
I don't care if were cousins,
You don't feel like a cousin to me,
But a best friend,
The closeness of best friends,
With something,
More,
And these times,
Ill never forget,
Not for the life of me,
Until the bitter end,
But until a year or so,
Maybe less,
The next time I see you again,
Hold tight I shall,
To these things that remind me of you,
And the memories,
For they are all I have,
To hope,
I love you Will,
Ive been told by a few people,
And told a few people,
Those 3 little words,
But have I ever felt it?
Before you,
The answer would have to be,
No,
But theres something in your tone of voice,
Your eyes,
Its true,
I’m missing you,
Beyond anyones comprehension,
So bad I feel it in my stomach,
Despite a pitiful attempt at breakfast,
I havent ate much since,
Nor sleep will become of me,
Pictures evade my mind,
You leaving,
Standing in line,
In the small crowd,
My first experience with an airport,
I couldn’t bear to look into your eyes,
Wishing you could stay,
But alas it’s not possible,
Cause you have work and school,
And I,
Nothing,
Nothing much to do,
Not much to look forward to,
But your voice,
On the end of a line,
Depressing,
But at least I have that little bit more to hold onto,
And in a year or less,
Ill be in your arms again,
But until that day,
Sitting Waiting Wishing,
For you,
I love you will,
You are my world,
A reason why I live and breathe,
It’s so clear to me now,
I promise Ill call you whenever I can,
Whenever im in need,
You said youd be there,
And I am for you,
Because we have this deep understanding and love for one another,
It makes it so hard,
Cause I cant have you As much as I want,
And I know all the prayer and wishing in the world wont bring you to me instantaneously,
Ive tried,
It hurts,
But I do know now,
That im not alone,
A reassuring feeling,
So here I shall sit,
In my little world,
Where you and I can be together,
In the security of one anothers arms,
Talking about everything and anything,
As we did on our all nighters,
For your secrets,
Our secrets,
Ill take to the grave…

Posted by gothicbtrflyz at 12:01 AM EDT

Updated: Friday, August 26, 2005 7:42 PM EDT

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